"Leap Year"
Have any of y'all heard that Leap Year is the traditional day when a woman can propose to a man? A friend of mine recently told me that. I think it has something to do with expressing desires and "leaping" forward. Well, I didn't ask anyone to marry me...
As spring approaches, I also struggle with leaping forward. There's the nagging feeling of things my spirit is telling me to pursue -- long-range, BIG idea plans that I keep finding excuses for delaying. But my pocketbook and my mind reign in my spirit and tie it down...like a little calf being roped at a rodeo. I suspect nearly all humans have this. This nagging spirit talk, and this foreboding mind-talk hammering it down. When my mind isn't looking, I allow spirit to take little baby steps toward BIG ideas and start laying a platform for take off. I have to do this quickly before the mind and the pocketbook catch on and ruin the fun. I'll be happy when I can easily play this game and allow mind and pocketbook to think they have control while secretly scheming for my escape.
My power of place helps me -- and that is the house by the lake. I've spent the last two weekends there to clear my mind of clutter, and practice opening to new possibilities. When one has let go of so much expectation (of money, nice cars, stable living), I guess it's easier to do this. I still have an ego, but it's definitely been checked.
One of my necessary spirit treatments was to soak in a pink jacuzzi tub, while a porcelain statue of David stood over me :) I starred at the reflection of a light in the bathwater, and it almost appeared to be a tunnel -- as if looking up to the sky from inside a well, and someone was looking down at me. What if I am just a dream that someone else is dreaming? Could this all be a movie set in the great cosmos? And if so, do you think they would send some angel help down to me? And if this is really a movie that I planned before I got here, then I can change it now simply by intending my old self to change the plan. These are all questions I asked. Needless to say, it was a very long bath!
While away from the traditional Montanan spiritual pursuits, I've been doing everything from shuffling papers for a lawyer, small business consulting, modeling designer bra straps (yes, I said bra straps), and investing in oil wells. Hmmm...although I didn't LEAP in February, I sure did knock off a lot of new experiences! Yeeehaww...
As spring approaches, I also struggle with leaping forward. There's the nagging feeling of things my spirit is telling me to pursue -- long-range, BIG idea plans that I keep finding excuses for delaying. But my pocketbook and my mind reign in my spirit and tie it down...like a little calf being roped at a rodeo. I suspect nearly all humans have this. This nagging spirit talk, and this foreboding mind-talk hammering it down. When my mind isn't looking, I allow spirit to take little baby steps toward BIG ideas and start laying a platform for take off. I have to do this quickly before the mind and the pocketbook catch on and ruin the fun. I'll be happy when I can easily play this game and allow mind and pocketbook to think they have control while secretly scheming for my escape.
My power of place helps me -- and that is the house by the lake. I've spent the last two weekends there to clear my mind of clutter, and practice opening to new possibilities. When one has let go of so much expectation (of money, nice cars, stable living), I guess it's easier to do this. I still have an ego, but it's definitely been checked.
One of my necessary spirit treatments was to soak in a pink jacuzzi tub, while a porcelain statue of David stood over me :) I starred at the reflection of a light in the bathwater, and it almost appeared to be a tunnel -- as if looking up to the sky from inside a well, and someone was looking down at me. What if I am just a dream that someone else is dreaming? Could this all be a movie set in the great cosmos? And if so, do you think they would send some angel help down to me? And if this is really a movie that I planned before I got here, then I can change it now simply by intending my old self to change the plan. These are all questions I asked. Needless to say, it was a very long bath!
While away from the traditional Montanan spiritual pursuits, I've been doing everything from shuffling papers for a lawyer, small business consulting, modeling designer bra straps (yes, I said bra straps), and investing in oil wells. Hmmm...although I didn't LEAP in February, I sure did knock off a lot of new experiences! Yeeehaww...
posted by Augonaut @ 8:15 PM
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