Radioactive Waste & Good Vibrations

A couple weeks ago, I was radiating.

I traveled to Washington state state for a PET and PEM scan. Radioactive serum was injected into me and I was told that no one should be near me for up to six hours afterward because they would be exposed to my radiation.

How is this different from the energy each person gives off? Does not the bad “mojo” that some carry around affect our cells? Suffice to say that each time I went pee after the test, I was leaving radioactive waste wherever I went. My dear friend was brave enough to sit with me in the room while I was scanned.

This process is helping me get more in touch with my feelings about everything! Children – whether or not I want them. Marriage – whether or not it’s right for me. Friends – it’s forced me to be very selective about whom I let into my life right now. Time – I put very little time into those not in my select circle. Love – clarifying the definition of love, and recognizing the types of love that are healthy for me.

My soul was bared when I had to confront a long time friend. I was afraid to tell him about my situation because I thought he would become very worried and emotional. The truth is, I was afraid I would become emotional. I know he cares deeply for me, and I was afraid to acknowledge that I care for him at a deeper level also. We were stuck – at a social event when he began asking me and my “radiation friend” details of our recent trip….What was going on? Did we shop? Is everything ok? My radioactive friend nearly spilled the beans and I promptly said “Let’s go!” But I didn’t make it out the door in time. The questions turned to me and then he simply said “It’s good to see you” - in that voice that means much more.

I lost it.

I couldn’t look at him. My eyes teared up. He hugged me and said, “No crying.” My radioactive friend said “Oh, you knew this was going to happen, let’s go!” We all left the scene promptly. No goodbyes. No turning around. I collected myself over the next few minutes, but I was a waste for the evening. Could it be that I was finally recognizing all the good “mojo” sent my way every time I was around this man? I was feeling it much more, and although still cautious of it, I was letting it permeate my cells. I was letting it in. And it felt so GOOD!

Later in the night, I became a good luck charm and won a decorated Christmas tree worth $600, which is now sitting nicely in my condo lighting up my world! I think I’m being slammed with good vibrations that we so often approach like radiation! “Is it safe?” “Will I be hurt?” “What are the long-term implications of this?” These are the vibrations of love!