Growing New Skin

Happy New Year! I’m on the other side of surgery, and my body is healing. I’m actually shedding skin and growing anew. My chiropractor helped me get into a peaceful state prior to surgery, where I remained for multiple hours before going into O.R. Since then, the peaceful state comes and goes…

My mother visited to offer her support and help me while I recovered from surgery, and an amazing group of women coordinated an organic food drop-off at my place. I can’t believe the amount of support I’ve received!

The next phase of this journey is a bit more difficult than the surgery. I’m weeding through additional treatment options. Although there is NO indication there is any cancer left in my body, the doctors present all kinds of additional therapies along with their statistics, side affects and risks. I hate being in indecision – it’s almost worse than the treatment itself!

I’ve consulted with homeopaths, naturopaths, juice fasters, oncologists and surgeons. Everyone has their own story, their own perspective; new data that keeps on changing arrives in my in-box or voice mail nearly daily.

Although the analysis and decision-making continues, I feel it’s bringing me closer to peace with how I want the rest of my life to look. As for the cause of this disease, I've read that by the time you detect breast cancer, you've had it for eight years. I could speculate that this is a remnant of my old life-style, or it's the result of stress in the last two years, or a problem that's rooted in spirituality or karma, or the result of a lack of control of the mind, too much energy in the body...maybe the Tibetan doctor will know! It will help me evolve.

Here’s an interesting quote that spoke to me: “You can’t fly with part of a cocoon hanging onto your butt”

We do have free will, and I’m finding mine again.

As for that special friend…things are complicated.